Monday, June 29, 2009

New Computer!

Well I’m home and I have my new computer and if my son will stop crying for a moment, I’ll be able to set up my school stuff.  I’m happy to be home.  It was wonderful and fun to be with Leslie again, but really there’s no place like home.  I love coming home after long trips, it just decompresses me.  No matter how good of a time I had I always like being home.  We had a great time though, Oscar had lots of fun with Leslie’s kids and we got to go see the Oregon Coast which I haven’t been since high school.  We played and walked, A LOT.  Well not a lot for Leslie because she’s some sort of walking machine, but a lot for me.  I got three blisters on one foot, that’s gotta be some sort of a record.  I did lunges for the first time since high school, and fell…I pulled my thigh muscle stepping into a hot tub and hmm what else did I injure.  I swear to god I’m a walking accident. 

Anyway more later, I have to get going on this school stuff while my kid is distracted…

Friday, June 12, 2009

My Naked Runaway Boy...

So you know how I was laughing at my mom about Oscar running away naked? Well I learned never to laugh about something like that. I had to chase him a half block away today...He was naked from the waist down. I swear to god I'm going to have to duct tape clothes on this kid. Oh and the house that I found him in front of...a cop's house. YAY!! Stinking kid. Now he's happily playing in the backyard with the hose...Hopefully that will keep him entertained for a bit.
I'm not ready to leave my mom's. Not mentally, but physically. I have a lot to do tonite, and I'm being kinda lazy about it. I just hate packing, and finding thing that have been strewn about the house.
Hold Please, have to check on a kid...
Okay he's still watering. Mom's going to be so happy when she gets home!
My brother's give me a hard time about my weight, mostly because they think its okay because I give myself a hard time about it. But today it got to me, because Aba cooked breakfast and I politely declined and he accused me of being anorexic! Seriously! I don't like pancakes, I don't eat them and if they are being cooked I don't want them. I had already eaten something and didn't want to eat, and yet he still badgered me about not eating. "what now your on a diet all of a sudden? you can't eat?" I don't understand. I've been getting back into my good routine of not over eating and feeling in control again. I've got a long way to go but I'm glad to be back.
I've gotta get all this in because I don't know how much I'll be on the net over at Leslie's.
Well mom's home I've got to go to the store now!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Waiting on Saturday

I'm meeting Leslie in Bend on Saturday to spend a couple weeks with her and well I guess her family too...but mostly just her. I'm excited, and I almost want to start walking now. I'm sure I'd get there by Saturday if I started walking...I can just see me and Oscar walking all the way to Eugene! ha! I'd make it down the block and have to turn around because I'd be too tired.

My mom is realizing how busy Oscar is, its like no one believes me that he's always going. She did this last time we were here too, when she had to watch him for over 5 minutes. This time she lost him in a matter of 2 minutes. They went in the front door, he went racing out the back and by the time she looked he was running down the road naked. I wasn't surprised. She then told me to wait till he was 7 to have another one. Who says I'm having any more?! Ohh but he's such a happy boy!! That's what I get in public...The lady at the Win-Co that we go to all the time loves him, and said "You get the good one first." Uhm if he's the good one I don't want a second. That might kill me. So now her advise is "wait" uhhh duh mom! That's why I got an IUD!
She told me to wait till he's 7 because by then I will have grown to apreciate his busyness...and if I have another one too soon it will take away from Oscar. I don't think I'm a multiple child mother...

Its been nice to be back here, my brother has been keeping me busy and I'm not too terribly bored. It has yet to be sunny and nice though here...I went from 80 degrees to 60s...I don't like it, especially because all I packed was shorts and t-shirts for Oscar. My sister in law has clothes that she has to go through to give us, because my brother's boy is 6 months older then Oscar but in almost size 5 clothes somehow. They're parents that think their kid is bigger then he really is. He was in size 6 diapers at 12 months old...that sort of thing, where I had Oscar in 4s almost till he was 2. Oh and they're already potty training their girl who's 1 and a half...Oscar has yet to be potty trained. I know!! Every kid is different!! I think its my competative personality, they bug me because it seems like they're trying to make their kids better then mine, but again it just might all be in my head.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

The Irresistible Draw of Facebook

That word just doesn't look right...
I have a love hate thing going on with Facebook, it has become an addiction while I'm here at mom's because the computer is in the middle of everything so I know exactly where Oscar is at all times...ha...well unless he goes outside. But anyway, I like Facebook like I liked MySpace, so I'm sure this love affair will come to an end here shortly. They have quizzes made by Junior High kids like MySpace, they have gardens you can grow and make friends, they have a world where you can get a job and buy things...all the same as MySpace. I'm already bored. I thought it was the "grown up version of MySpace" or was I just dreaming? The better thing is that I have found more people from High School on Facebook then M.S. But do I really want to have those friends? And are they annoyed with how often I post my mood swings?? My insecurities get the best of me at these times. I want to be done with it but then what am I going to go on the computer all day?! If I would just do what my mom says and just follow my kid around all day I would have stuff to do, but I get worn out doing that. She really doesn't get how busy he is...But again, it would be a good weight loss program.
Speaking of weight baby brother made me go for a walk yesterday and then made me go play basketball with our nephews, who insisted on playing one on one with me...Yeah I almost died. But its a good death. I'm slowly losing the weight that the IUD put on me. Thank goodness it was only 5lbs and not 50!! My hormones are leveling off again and I'm feeling more normal and not so hungry all the time, and I'm not stuffing myself at meal times again.

While I love being at home here with my family at times I don't feel like I should be here, I guess that's a thing about growing up...I get to thinking about my place in the family and what my roll is. And honestly I don't know what it is...I wonder if that's part of the "middle child syndrome".

Everyone keeps telling Leslie and I that we need to write a book while we have some time together...We're just at a loss as to what we would write about and if anyone would read it, because usually our humor doesn't exend much further then ourselves. We will laugh forever about something but others will only look at us like we have three heads...So really what would we write that would actually make us millionaires. And don't tell us Vampires!!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Bi-Polar? Shhmaybe!!

Okay I'm going to sound totally crazy and a little bi-polar because today I am WONDERFUL!! The roommates are kicked out I'm in Burns visiting family...I would say "mom" like I usually do but she's not here she's in Bend with my Gramps...
Anyway! So the roommates got kicked out last Monday, after a big fight between a little dude who would only say "Its common sense!" and Jesse who was ready to kick his ass. It all started when: (picture gets fuzzy and starts shimmering) Jesse got tired of cleaning up dishes after the roommates and put one of their pans at the top of the stairs so they could take it down and let it get moldy down there. Fast forward to a couple hours later...Younger Duchebag and Girlfriend come back supposivily from the hospital because she somehow stepped on the pan and "fell down the stairs" She had a brace on her wrist. -Side note, I have fallen down the stairs, Oscar has fallen down the stairs; and neither one of us needed to go to the hospital. (Oscar from the very top) Anyway the Duche says "Jesse, can I have a WORD with you?" (He always said that when he wanted to talk to us, which I found funny) and Jesse says "Sure"
"You know that PAN you put at the top of the stairs"
"WELL Carly(Girlfriend) stepped on it and fell down the stairs and hurt herself"
"Well maybe you should look where you're going"
"No its just common sense, you don't do that"
"I'm sorry she fell"
"No its just common sense"
"No its just common sense, and now we're not paying your fucking rent this month"
"Well get the fuck out of my house then"
"Well when my BROTHER gets home he'll have WORDS with you too!"

Brother came home at around 3 am, did not have words with Jesse, didn't have "words" with him the next day either. Handed over the key without a word otherwise and they packed up what little shit they had and left. Oh they left some shit in the garage too. And a stink in the basement.

So the next couple of days of us being home was WONDERFUL!! It was quiet, there was no annoying hiss laughter coming from downstairs, no douchy conversations to have to listen to. It instantly made me go from super stressed and angry to floating on air. Jesse actually had blue birds on his shoulders and was skipping around whistling. Just beautiful!

Jesse's mom is moving in with us. Now don't groan!! I know it sounds bad but the woman is actually a wonderful person, she might be flighty and flaky but she will have a job with in a week I garauntee it. I'm actually kinda excited about it. Hell we've lived with my sister and her monsters, then with three douches I'm sure this will be just another learning experiance. And until I'm making money too, its just something we have to do.

Still no word on if they sold the house...our big problem is that we're late on rent this month because we had to come up with all of it because of the punks that left us. There is a house just down the block that should be going up for rent soon, we're going to check it out just in case we have to move. I don't want to move...

The other big news is that Jesse was found not to be qualified for the Boarder Protection Job, not because of his background, well kinda, but because he is technically a Draft Dodger...He never signed up for Selective Service and the Office of Personnell Management decided that he didn't give enough evidence to support that he didn't mean to not sign up. Apparently being a 18 year old dummy isn't a good enough excuse. So we were bummed but its not a total loss, we have come to love our neighborhood too much to really want to leave. I just don't really know what kind of evidence they wanted us to give...He graduated high school, and went to Eugene to smoke a lot of weed, of course he didn't know about the S.S. He didn't sign up for any financial aide so he didn't get notice then, he never applied for any government help or jobs so he didn't know about it then...he honestly just didn't know!

So with that, he is now going to see if he'll be elligible to become a city or state cop and go to school and take some classes, we know that he won't be elligible for government loans but he should be able to get enough in private funds. Grants and such. And he's getting away from his journeyman at work, the guy is screwing him out of way too much money and basically just being a total dickface about everything. So he's going to go out on his own. Which will be good and end up being about a $10 raise for him.

I will start my schooling when I get back, because I should have my laptop by then, I got all the materials in the other day and got to look through everything. I'm going to become very knowledgeble about medical terms. I'm excited!! Then I will be on my way to being a productive member of society again and make some money and be able to pay off bills! YAY!

So do you see how different I am today? I think I am bi-polar...
I'm waiting for my delusions of grandure...oh wait, I think I just did that in the previous paragraph!! ha!! My delusions of grandure just invovlve me being able to pay bills!
Anyway! Hopefully I'll be on again later, since I'm at mom's I should be able to keep up the writing...