Showing posts with label Self esteem. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Self esteem. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Typing Quick Before the Kid gets into anything else...

Seriously I haven't been on the Computer in two days. Because every time I tried Oscar would get into shit. Like right now? Okay a little bit ago, he was in his grandma's bathroom, elbows deep in the toilet playing with a toy. Awesome! Before that he was in her room messing with god knows what. He said he was "drinking water" but I don't believe it for a second. At this moment I have no idea what he's doing. And that scares the crap out of me.

I don't know what's up with me but I haven't been liking being on the net or the computer lately. I think it's because I'm mad at my Medical Transcription class. They're total bitches about grading and make me feel like I was never taught how to write a sentence. I have even reread their chapter on grammar 5 times now to figure out what the fuck I'm doing wrong every assignment. I have yet to figure it out. Seems as though they change the rules for EVERY SINGLE FUCKING ASSIGNMENT. So why train at all? If the rules are different for EVERY different transcription what the hell am I doing here?? And the shit that they get me on is REDICULOUS and doesn't change the structure or meaning of the fucking sentence.

I apologize for all the f bombs. I know I don't really throw them around that much, but as you can see I'm super angry at the moment. If it wasn't an online class I would go into someone's office and punch a bitch right in the face. I swear to God.

Other then that life has been super fantastic. Everyone is home with my parents except me. So I'm throwing myself a pity party here. I'm a saaaddd Randa. We're supposed to go over to my Aunts for Christmas dinner so that should be interesting fun. Work is going splendidly I got notice that I am now a permanent employee, and my mother already has her delusions of grandeur for me. "You'll be upper management in no time!" She's the only mom who would be proud that her daughter is a manager at a W.M. So yeah, I still like going into work, everyone at this one is actually pretty pleasant to work with. So I guess that's a plus. And paying bills feels really good.

I got a new camera from a super cool Twitter friend, that I can not stop bragging about. It's been tons of fun taking pictures, and I've already sucked a set of batteries dry. Which apparently isn't hard to do! But hey I've got a lot of random picture of Oscar now! YAY! He hates loves the camera.

Anyway I need to get going, I typed this furiously and fast to get it all out there, and now it's back to chasing and yelling at a kid who doesn't seem to want to just sit still for just half a freaking second.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Wishing for Anonymous Unsolicited Advice

Twitter has opened my world up to a host of brand new blogs and bloggers for me to stalk. This makes me happy, and also keeps me really busy. I barely have time to work on my transcriptions! Today was a little different, it was a boring day on twitter, so I got done with one transcription that I had to re-do because of a low grade. Then I started and finished typing out another one. I know! Amazing right? I didn't complete it, I was told to type it all out, let it sit, then go back and correct it again. So that's what I'm doing. Do you know how long it takes me to transcribe a 6 minute talk? A long freaking time! You try it sometime. It's tougher then you think. I thought when I first started that it would be easy, then I found out that it's not so easy. I think it's all the gigantic words doctors use. Whew, where was I headed.
Okay so I was on my blogging wandering and there was one that I like and that I have on my "blogroll" and she had done a vlog. Oooh, I soo want to do this now, because I am a follower! And apparently she said some inflammatory things on this vlog. But the comments, they were so freaking mean! And anonymous people commenting is just ridiculous. Especially when they're full of unsolicited advise that pertains to nothing really, and is just nasty. I have yet to get an anonymous mean comment, I don't know what I would do, I think I would laugh, but then on the inside I would be crying. Because I'm a wimp.  I really have no idea where this was going, so uhm I'll just say, if you have an anonymous comment full of unsolicited advice I will not take the advice. I will probably just laugh, and say "ohh anonymous, your soo silly!"
What I ate yesterday:
no breakfast
chips
Top Ramen
Coffee
Water
Milk
Steak
Salad with dressing

Monday, November 9, 2009

Ad Ware Makes My Self-Esteem Plummet

I just set up Ad-Ware I think on Friday and already it's yelling at me that I won't make any money because I don't get 1000 visitors a day. Stinking Ad-Ware. Google Ads didn't make me feel bad! I got kicked off of Google Ads though because I only had two readers, my sister and my friend at the time and they would click 6 to 12 ads at a time and according to Google, that's cheating or what they call "inaccurate clicks" Whatever Google Ads!
The thing is I don't want a 1000 readers a day. I like the people that read my blog and I think I'll stick with them. I'm going for quality not quantity. And this isn't just to make me feel better about myself, this is about the freedom to say what I want to say and not to worry about people "hating me" or being my "minions." That word "minion" has been thrown around a lot lately in the blogs that I read and I think it's funny. Like bloggers are supreme beings. Or wait, popular bloggers, are supreme beings or maybe giant planets and we as non-popular bloggers are their moons.
I also want to say that my friend Leslie is also a contributor on this blog but she doesn't contribute very often because she feels like she's a little out of place. Or something like that, I wasn't paying attention to her when she was talking.
So why the Ads? Because I like to dream people. I like to fantasize that I will have a million followers swooning on my every word and backing up my every thought. I also fantasize that I can sing like Mariah Carey and have the body of Beyonce. But that's besides the point. I also just got bored the other day and thought I would torture myself by setting up those stinking ads. Oh and I am not supposed to say there is any incentive for people to click my ads, so I'll just say: "Hey...psssttt...you...you there, click on that ad. JUST ONE THOUGH! I don't want to get kicked off." You get nothing in return mind you. Just the satisfaction of getting me 6 pennies. Oh and if I ever get a lot of money, I will get you something pretty. Wait, is that an incentive?! I didn't say that.
I will promise that I will probably never get to go to
Blogher or any other convention set up for the blogger people because I am NEVER going to be that cool.

Oh and if you're still with me...Here's something else completely boring and not really what you want to read:
What I ate yesterday:
2 egg, cheese, polish sausage "breakfast" burritos
popcorn
2 slices of pepperoni pizza
2 pieces of lemon cake
And around 32 oz of water.
For a "work-out" we walked around PetSmart and Boarders. Shut up.