In need of a "palet cleanser" STAT!

We watch The Soup a lot. And now they have Web Soup on G4Tv that we have to watch, and they show "The Greatest Web Video Ever. (this week)" and usually its gross. So they have "The Palet Cleanser" which is usually a cute animal video. Last time I watched the palate cleanser was a dog riding in a kiddy swing. IT WAS ADORABLE! So this leads me to this...

My sister posted a video on Facebook of a guy getting a zit, or a boil, rather popped on his back. I gagged. Seriously I turned around and gagged. Jesse lasted a whole 30 seconds and had to walk out of the room, he came back just in time to see a stream of puss getting squeezed out and shuddered violently and ran out.
Please if you have a weak stomach like I do, be careful watching this:

http://www.iamboredr.com/media/13891/OMFG_Its_gotta_be_the_biggest_zit_in_the_world/


and when your done...watch this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TQ80ONmexJY


Ahh now don't you feel better?

So I had an intervention on my self today. That's right I intervened myself. I went on Facebook, yes before I got done with homework, and deleted my Vampire Wars game. And then I went on to delete all, ALL, the friends that I made playing the game, because really they weren't "friends" in the strictest sense of the word. But it made me anxious for some reason, and I even feel anxious when I talk about it, which is odd. The only thing is now that I only have 124 friends, I'm bored, and the other games that I play suck now because I don't have as many friends, so I'm kinda regretting deleting them all. But! I know that if I just deleted the game the comments about the game would suck me back in so I had no choice.

Okay so my goals...I did not get off my butt today. I didn't. I'm sorry. I did eat, a little less, then yesterday. I had no soda. But this isn't hard for me really, because I don't leave the house much its really relying on Jesse to get me the soda, and well if I tell him not to once he won't ever get it for me. But I did spend less time on Facebook today. LESS. And tomorrow it might be even lesser! Oh! I got one assignment done. I didn't do too bad on it either. I'm thinking I'll do another one tonight. I don't want to get to crazy. So! For tomorrow!

1. GET OFF MY BUTT AND DANCE! or do the Wii Active, that's why I stole it from my sister in the first place.
2. Get ALL of my assignments done.

I think that's it. I'm thinking if I stick to a couple goals a day I'll do better in the long run.
Oh, the herbal uppers...its just a lot of Vitamin B. And Niacin. I don't know if they're working or not, it takes me a bit to adjust to them, a while back I was drinking EmergenC three times a day and it took I think three days for me to get any energy out of it, I think because my body is so depleted of any sort of goodness that it takes a bit for it to get an excess so I can have that energy.

I watched the Presidents speech tonight, I liked how he laid the smack down. It was good, but the thing that I don't like is everyone is always talking about the insurance companies. Yes they are bad, BUT if the damn hospitals and doctors didn't charge so damned much maybe we wouldn't have to have expensive insurance to cover our asses. I was a little worried early on in the speech how he said that we would "all have to have insurance, like car insurance." And to that I say UHHH wha?! Just to be clear though he did state later that if you can't afford it you will get it for free or for less money. That made me breath again. Because if I can't afford car insurance, I just don't freaking drive! Plus how are they going to know if you have health insurance or not? I mean if you never go to the doctor why have it? Yes I know for accidents but like Chris Rock says "its in case shit happens" I think that's bullshit. I think that there should be automatic coverage for everyone, with out charging us. Because we're in the position right now that we can't even afford $20 extra dollars a month. So if the heath insurance that WE HAVE TO HAVE is more then that, well take us to jail! The thing is Jesse hasn't been covered by insurance his whole life, and I think he's been to the doctor oohhh NEVER in the past 6 years. God knows the guy probably has stomach and mouth cancer from the chew but he hasn't complained yet! So I think that his insurance should be a lot less then someone like myself who was having to go to the doctor every three months just to chit chat about my depression. The WHOLE health care system here is BROKEN. Not just the Insurance. Heath Care is broken. And needs to be fixed.

Can you believe all the topics I'm covering?! I'm all over the map tonight!

Jesse applied for a security job today, lets hope they ask him to come in before they reject him. I got word from my neighbor that the bank that her sister works at might be hiring soon and if so she is going to put in a good word for me with her boss. Part time, three days a week. That will do!

You know what happens when you stop paying your credit card bills? You get 15 calls a day from an "unknown" number, that will not leave a message. They don't get it, I know why they're calling, if they'd leave a message and tell me who they are I might give them a call back. Okay that's a lie, I won't, because you can't squeeze blood from a turnip, and when your rent is $1050 a month and your man is only bringing in well not much more then that, you tend to say "hmm, get kicked out of my house or put my phone on vibrate so I don't have to hear credit card companies calling me?" The only bills we have been paying are: Rent, electric, water, sewer, car payment, and car insurance. And had we been smart in the past well that's all we would have to pay but nooo we said "You'll still have work Jesse! You'll still be making $2700 a month in a couple months!" Boy were we wrong!
So! This is why I need to get done with my classes. And I need to get a good job that pays me a decent enough wage to be able to pay all the bills at which time will have all gone to those damn evil collections companies who are usually assholes. But! I will pay them! One day! Hopefully soon! We're hoping and praying, well I'm praying, you know Jesse doesn't do that, but anyway that he gets a job that is CONSISTANT! That's all we need, consistancy.

Alright I think I'm done for the evening. Enough randomness for you all? Good!

The President Writes with the Wrong Hand!

I haven't been sleeping so well lately. I've been taking sleeping pills and yet I'm still waking up. Last night I did not take a pill because I wanted to stay up a little later then 9pm, so I was up all night listening to noises and my ipod. My ipod gave out on me around 4:30 and then I was stuck with the noises. I've been hearing footsteps in my bedroom...yeah that's right, I'm still being stalked by a ghost or something. You know how footsteps on carpet sounds, that soft padding sound? That's what I hear all the time...
Maybe I should back up...Three nights ago I went to the movies with my aunt and uncle. We had a great time, we went and saw The Curious Tale of Benjamin Button, it was a great movie, and yes I cried. Not as bad as I thought I would but yet there were tears. So I get home and everything's okay until about 11 when I start bawling uncontrollably. No reason, no thoughts just crying. Crying so hard that I started retching, and dry heaving. It was terrible. I cried like that for an hour and a half, trying to get myself to calm down and not freak my boyfriend out too much, then I started hearing the noises...first there were scratches and sniffing going on in the wall, and then the footsteps. The footsteps didn't start until after Jesse came to bed and was sound asleep, so I had to frantically wake him up. "was that it?" "no, shut up!" "was that it" "oh for god sakes now they're not doing it, go back to sleep" It started all over again. So I was up all night over that. Now I'm paranoid. I'm losing my mind.

Jesse got an email about that job, he was not qualified, apparently there was a clause on the application that said that you had to have a security background, but it was invisible to me. So I replied to the rejection email. Basically telling them that they are missing out on one of the best security personnel ever. I was a little upset. Mostly for the fact that I spent a lot of my time filling that out then printing out all their b.s. and no where on the application did it say that he needed a background in security...if it had, I wouldn't have filled it out. Why say "everyone can apply" when that's not really the case.

Someday soon I am going to record a phone conversation between my friend and I and write it out. I told her yesterday that we sould have a blog of our phone conversations because they consist of very odd things. Oh sure there are times when we don't say anything at all but then there are other days when she calls and says "I was watching tv and I noticed that President Obama writes with the wrong hand...JUST LIKE YOU!!!" Or our talks about the FBI listening in on our conversations because we've intentionally said "terrorist" over 20 times. Her husband is in agreement that we are nuts and that other people would find our conversations humorous. No one truely understands us though, well as far as we know. Maybe if we put it out there, someone would get us.

I did a couple more pages of a scrap book, my only problem is now, where to put them. I have big 12x12 pages but no albium (intentionally spelled wrong) to put them in. I was thinking of hanging them up in my room but I need something like a clothes line to do it. I have noticed in comparision to other scrap booking stuff, that I am a minimalist when it comes to scrap booking, I like my pages not so layered as others.

The boy child decided not to take a nap today, and I am not so happy about that, because when he naps, I nap. That's right, I nap! I don't do what other mom's do and get shit done while he's sleeping, no I sleep right along with him. I'm TIRED! GIVE ME A BREAK! This is what happens when you don't sleep at night you have to get it when you can, and when he doesn't nap I don't nap and we're both bitches because of it. So I messed around on the computer for most of the day and he watched movies. Oh I got a lot of new music that's what I've been doing. I need to have CDs in my car because I don't have a fancy ipod hook up for my car, and I hate the music stations here.

I've been a bad girl and not been able to pay my capital one bill, and they're calling me everyday. I know it's them, I'm just not answering because I don't want to hear it from them. I know I haven't paid, I'm only a week late for crying out loud. But I don't have the money and if I tell them that they won't believe me so I just go on ignoring their phone calls. They'll get paid off when I get my taxes back and then I won't have to hear from them ever again. So there! They won't leave a message though, and I know its just some guy or gal in India making the call and they can never pronounce my name and that makes me even more irritated. So that's it I just keep hitting ignore, they even called today, on a Sunday for crying out loud!! I should store the number in my phone and block it or something. I know I'm a terrible person for not paying my bills on time. This is what happens in a one income home when that one income gets laid off and screwed out of unemployment by his employers. You kinda have to pick and choose what gets paid and really its the big three, home, car, and food. Sorry Capital One.